Friday, October 30, 2009

Another long weekend!


Making sense of it all in truly an arduous task for me right now.   There was news, certainly not the news I wanted to hear.  Each Sunday I begin my week by saying maybe this IS the week! By Friday late afternoon the same mode of grief that set upon me on May 18th (first failed court date) is the same mood and spirit that drags me through my weekends......I refuse to loose my FAITH! I refuse to QUESTION why?, but just know I am drowning and in need of some relief Lord, to know that this is certainly your dream  and desire for me.  Amen



Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Adoption Update

No News, last we were told yesterday the Owner of the agency leaves today headed out to ET to check on things.  

I use to see progress each times even if it was for more clarification purposes, so I hope it holds true this time as well.

Let see!

OK, Back to the diet!

Yesterday, was ok! The meatloaf? How Was it? hmmmm, it was eatable!  LOL

It just had a very different taste to me, not one I would say I want to get use to. Most of the ingredients were on the mexican taco side w/o any salt, so to me it was very bland. And usually Mexican food is not bland at all.  I think our minds are wired on how things will taste and as we prepare to eat them our taste buds, are prepared to taste certain things they way we know they should taste, Now I am open to all types of foods/tastes, however 10 yrs ago I could make myself like it, but now...10 yrs later........thats not the case,  if it does not tickle my fancy then I cant fake the funk!!!! Even for lunch yesterday the oven baked chicken was not hitting on much of any thing either.  It satisfied the hunger pain but that was about it!

Pros:  Ate all my meals and snacks fairly on time

Cons:  The food or shall I say the meatloaf is jut not fitting my taste buds this week, but to bad I have a full pan left of it.  on a scale of 1-10  I give the meat loaf a 4.


Sunday, October 25, 2009

What Am I Up To Now? **Edit*** @ bottom is a update

A diversion away from the Adoption front for now!!!  Well you never actually go away!

Well this AM I spent almost three hrs in the grocery store, thats right, not able to sleep, I got up, and thought it was a great time at 5 in the AM to shop!!!

I am doing a food plan/fat loss system called the The Food Lovers.  Saw it on a infomercial.  I was attracted to the the fact, you can EAT any thing you want, all your favorite foods, w/the right combination and portion control.  I know in the past that has been my down fall, I can follow what ever diet, (expect the Atkins diet), until I reach my goal, then I become very board of the eating choices, and find myself drifting away from it.  So, I was really sold on the fact that w/The food Lovers Fat Loss System, you can have ALL your favorite foods.

So fast forward three weeks ahead after getting all the materials in the mail, and after making lots of excuses that I don't have time to get all the ingredients, I woke this AM on a mission.

Grocery Store:

I have learned one thing this AM, is that I don't like spending lots of time in the grocery store looking for ingredients I don't normally cook w/or use.  I was in the grocery store for 2/5 hrs.  Yup, you read that right, at 5AM! it was not b/c the store was packed w/lots of customers, it was b/c I had to  walk that entire store, and  look for all the ingredients the recipes called for, and to be honest things I had never heard of.......But at the end I was excited to see all the new things in my shopping cart, hoping in the back of my head that they would taste as good.

I will continue to journal my progress w/pros and cons......starting now.

pros:  Lots of support resources and materials in the entire package.  you have videos, workout videos, motivating cd's to listen to, you have recipe cards, eating out guide, a snack guide, how to make a fat loss plate, eating out guide, and a journal to track all your progress, a recipe book to show you what fast carbs, slow carbs are and proteins are......So they have covered everything from soup to nuts.  

Cons:  I have done so much in the line of weight loss that I think it is a good thing and a  bad thing.....I have educated myself on the most healthiest and the most dangerous ways to loose weight and I have stayed clear of those that does more harm on your body, for example and this is just my opinion, but I found the Atkins Diet to very dangerous if not monitored correctly and done over an extended period of time.  It is also something a/b that word Ketosis that makes my palms start to sweat, and that is all your hear in the Atkins diet, anyway, just my own personal hang up.  Ok, back to the food lovers diet.........one draw back, I DON'T Believe when your goal is to drop weight, you can have EVERYTHING you want.  Yes, eventually in moderation you can! But for ME, I think within this plan you still have to make better food choices.  know your body and how certain foods trigger or react in it, w/my body and what works best for me, I know to drop weight I have to eat 6-7 times per day, very very small meals, and they have to be meals and snacks that will work slow in my system (on this program those  meals and snacks would be the slow cards) for example, on the program if you are a fan of white rice you can have it, I think on the plan for women you can have a 1/2 of white rice, for a man it is cup, but I know how white rice reacts in my system and the better choice for me is the brown rice.  Another example  would be during snack time, on the plan you can have any type of snack, cookies, brownies, nuts, cheese, or a protein shake, now that all sounds good but I know for "ME" what works better, and what would be a better choice for me would be the raw almonds for a snack, or the protein/whey shake.  

But after talking to a friend who is doing the diet along w/me, says I am mixing diet plans, and I am mixing all my knowledge and info and over scrutinizing the plan, then I am reminded by this friend of mine that maybe that is reason the other diets plans didn't work for me b/c they were so restricting......hmmmmm, I don't know the jury is still out on this one!  Can't say if I am mixing them all up, or doing what works best for me, but then again,  if that was the case I could just drop some weight w/o the plan if I knew what worked best for me!!! LOL  ANY WAY!!!

I am making today from the recipe cards.....
cooking for two- three days days so don't think i'm a pig!

Over fried chicken, (there are some really funky/interesting ingredients for this one)
Meat loaf (very interesting, never made meat loaf this way)
Swedish Meatballs(not to far off from how I make mine)

Slow Carbs:  Steamed Broccoli (no big deal)
Maple Glazed Carrots(no big deal)
Grilled Acorn Squash ( I love this dish and I'm very familiar w/it)

Fast Carbs:  Mashed potatoes (a bit different from how mine are done normally)
Chipotle Mashed Sweet Potatoes (love sweet potatoes, recipe very interesting)
Winter Squash Soup (love winter squash, almost like butter nut squah soup)

so wish me luck and I will keep you guys posted!
*************EDIT w/update****************

OK veggies were good that was the slow cards

Fast cards were tasty

Did not get all the stuff needed to make the Swedish meatballs, so never made those

did make the meat loaf along w/oven fried chicken......it was tasty, not bad at all, would I eat it again?, yes, on a scale 1-10 I give the chicken a 7 and the meat loaf I just tasted did not eat, will have tomorrow for lunch so I will report out then.

Now if I could just get my hind parts on this treadmill!   




Saturday, October 17, 2009

Thanks

For all the encouraging post!

Yesterday there was an update, that all open cases wld be heard between scheduled cases. 

which means:  I am an open case, an open case is a case that needs forms/paperwork added to make it complete and to get the judges approval.  

My status:  Open Case!  so some would say that is great news! I do agree, however, even w/great news there are still lots of questions.  

If my case is heard on any given day w/o prior notice, does there have to be a written MOWA opinion? Wld the parent have to stand before the judge, which she would have to be notified that this is the day for court and you have to appear?

Or, None of the above are needed, no appearance, and no MOWA written opinion????

These are the questions I have b/c I know in most cases each time you go in front of the judge you have to have a written MOWA opinion to include the new documents the judge has requested, from what I have learned during my trip to ET, that each time the parent does have to appear before the judge.

Hmmm, are there special circumstances?  Sure!, is this the case for me?  Not sure!

I guess when it all balls down to it, I rather have a court date, then to sit as an open case.

I see folks are getting Nov. 3rd court dates already from some agencies!

I know I said I would not do it! 

I said I would not mark a month, day in my head for them to be home by b/c I was so disappointed this summer when we did not make it before court closings, but I am human and I don't think they will be home for Christmas this year!  I pray to GOD that this is not so.....but it is really getting really hard for me!!!!

Friday, October 16, 2009

To be or Not To Be Is The Question

Not really upset, but more disappointed.  News today from Agency that those who have waited, and waited, are not the ones who received court dates this week.  The courts are assigning court dates in random order, and those who were just filed who may have waited a hot minute are the folks getting the court dates.

Not sure who they are at this point, or how far the court dates are being assigned out, but I have to continue to believe that soon and very soon..............the girls will be filed again in court!

I think each time you get news that this may not be the week you get a court date, kinda takes the wind right out of your gut.  I have so many folks on edge waiting for the courts to open so that these two precious girls of mine can be on their way, and I think I am getting to the point where maybe it is best not to say ANYTHING any more.  

This is an emotional roller coaster, AGAIN!  but I have faith!

Monday, October 12, 2009

I hate that my moms last day w/me is tomorrow


Here is my mom!!! All dressed in blue.















Her trip is way to short!!!



I know she has to get back to my dad!


For some odd reason I sleep at night when my mom is in the house like I did when I was younger still living under her roof, w/o a care in the world. I have gotten some really good sleep and naps these last few days


We have had so much fun these last few days. Today we spent time really getting the room together, each time I posted pics of the room there was a truck load of stuff in hallway waiting to go back into the room and lately, the room had collected lots, and lots of junk!!!!!


Well Moma was here and fixed it all!!!, no junk, things are tucked right where they belong, and for some reason, I just know after she put her magical hands on their rooms it won't be long before her grandbabies are here in the United States. My mom was in heaven today, as we packed all the summer stuff down and hung the fall/winter stuff! These are her first set of grandchildren, and she is soooooo excited.


Got goooooodddd news today, the courts are OPEN!!! Open cases, which I am one, will get priority, or assigned a court date w/in the next two weeks! I am praying and praying w/o cease, and I ask that all that visit this blog, pls pray my girls home!




Posting pics later of my mom in her glory




TYFR(Thank Ya For Reading)













Celeste













Saturday, October 10, 2009

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Hair Care

Well I have decided to go back to mixing my own batch of Shea Butter w/EO(Essential Oils)  I could not do a video of how I make my own hair products, so I went to YouTube and downloaded one that is very close to how I whip my products together, the only thing that I have not done which I will begin to do is put the preservative in there.

I have also added a small video  about EO's

I hope this helps, there are load of videos on whipping your own shea butter on Youtube, so either use this one, or search for one that works for you, or you can just say bump all that and find a company you can order it from that makes it.  I actually enjoy making it myself!


Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Courts Reopening

Oct 13th, next Tuesday!!!!

Yaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy


Now that does not mean I will get a court date, but just knowing that the courts will open one week from today, gives me great hope!

New on the adoption front:

Next Tuesday, I have another HS visit!! uuugh!

In Feb. of this year My CIS paperwork expires, and here in wonderful NJ, they will not extend w/o an amended HS,  not to mention the HS expired back in May, which is how I found out about all those extra HS visits I would have to pay for unless I flew to ET to visit w/the girls......You all recall all that crazy stuff, well anyway, I have tried my best to get around this HS visit and the cost of HS addendum!  My request to extend the CIS (1600A) for another 18 months has to be made 90 days prior to the expiration date.  So If I am counting correctly, November will put me in the window of 90 days.  

And........

I also need an age change made.........So it states on paper......on December 16th I will be singing Happy Birthday to the girls, I really hope in person, but if not, I am sure all the cyber aunties will be singing in their hearts and sending Happy birthday wishes to them from afar.




Sunday, October 4, 2009

Its been a long time

since I have gotten this question, that I really almost forgot about all my defenses, and stumbled when asked by my supervisor....

"how much is all this costing you?"

I can tell you early in the process I was prepared to answer/not answer this question, but after being 2 months away since the referral of the girls 1 year ago, my defense has gone down, not to mention it has been so long since I was asked this question, I really really don't recall how I use to answer it. Maybe I have to look at my older post......

I love that folks are concerned, and I have summed up the fact, that folks don't know what say or ask, when they hear a/b you adopting over seas. Outside of the regular congratulatory congrats, folks have lots of questions, I just can't believe that I am still posting about this very same question.

Need I say it is rude(hope supervisor does not find my blog), and equivalent to someone asking you personal questions you feel is none of their business.

Yes I do have a hang up w/folks asking about the cost of this whole thing..... so if you are not willing to do any of the following........

1. adopt a child over seas

2. sponsor a child over seas

3. or give me a monetary gift towards the girls

You have no real reason to ask that question.

Friday, October 2, 2009

GRANDMA IS COMING!

MOMMA TO ME

GRANDMA TO THE GIRLS!!!

I AM SO EXCITED, MY MOTHER IS COMING FOR A VISIT!

WE ARE GOING TO SHOP, ORGANIZE, SHOP, ORGANIZE, EAT, TALK,COOK, GO TO AN ET RESTAURANT,  SHOP(DID I SAY THAT ALREADY), AND DO GIRLY THINGS.

SHE HAS ONLY SEEN THE GIRL'S ROOM IN PICS, NOW SHE GETS TO SEE W/HER OWN EYES, AND PUT HER SPECIAL GRANDMA TOUCHES ON IT.

U GUYS JUST DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH SHE HAS WAITED TO BE A GRANDMA, IF YOU TALKED W/MY MOM, U WOULD THINK SHE WAS GOING TO ET TO BRING THE GIRLS HOME.

SHE HAS  REQUESTED THEM FOR THE SUMMER ALREADY, AND NEED I REMIND YOU SHE LEAVES 8 HRS AWAY FROM ME...UMMMM, I DON'T THINK SO......NEXT SUMMER (MAYBE)  LOL