Week 16.........4 Months of waiting

Can I just tell you that 4 months of waiting feels no different from the 1st month. I had an opportunity to flip back and read a few old post from when this count down started, and I am so happy I had a place to archive my feelings and emotions, b/c of where I was during those times, emotionally is a distant thought as I enter week 16. I mean I am sure if I had to do it all over again, those same thoughts and feelings would surface again, but thus far I have been very good w/this waiting process. I have not stressed, sure, I have gotten angry over a few times that were out of my control, but I entered this process with preconcieved notions based on other adoptive parents journey of how this wait was going to play out for me, and what I have come to realize is that, there is not one journey that is same, there is not one adoption that is the same, and with knowing that, I have learned to listen to adoption stories and gleam off the top what I think works for me and leave the rest.

This week I have decided that I am happy, and grateful to have the honor of waiting for a baby girl that I know nothing about, a baby girl who GOD has picked for me to nuture and care for, and a baby girl who will receive all this love from family and friends.

So for Week 16 I am happy

8 days and counting.........go Barack!!!

November 4th, 2008 (Election Day) is soon approaching!!!

Week 15....Time For My Weekly Check-Up

Will post reflections soon........... I am out of town and wanted to post while I can still get a connection...........My mom still has dial up services in NC that takes forever

Jesus Take The Wheel

Under Contruction

WAIT!!!!!!!!!

Its the same place just a different look!!!!!!!

EDIT************ I think I like it.......I am done for now.... The colors are nice and I know by the time Kayla comes home I will change it again. I have signed off and on a few times and I like what I see each time. So, here we go w/a new look, the hopes of a referral soon. I am still sticking to my Nov. 4th deadline, althought it may not happen..........Here is to New Energy on this blog


Woke up with a great idea to give myself and blog facelift, well let me know what you think

I am still playing w/colors but I needed something new.

Celeste

Week 14 Post.....and lots of dreams

This feels to much like those weekly visits to your dr. when as you get closer to your due date you make weekly dr. visits. If my weekly posts are any indication that I am getting closer to that "gotcha day" then I say bring it on.....

I am ready, I truly am, not to mention my thoughts of maybe adopting two now are on the list of my running thoughts, but I know deep down maybe right now that may not be the wise thing to do, although I am fighting w/my inner emotions, and fear that when I finally decide to go back and dadopt again there may be many many changes that may make it really hard to adopt from ET with all the changes. But for right now I should just not worry about that right now, and focus on getting little Kayla home and loving on her. In my heart of hears and in my faith I believe that if God sees fit for me to return again to adopt another one of ET's precisou gems then he will provide and make a way and remove all the obstacles that stand before me.

I keep having these weird, well I should not say weird dreams but these dreams of being in a very unfamiliar place holding this baby in my my arms, I can't see the face, the baby is wrapped in lots of heavy blankets, and I am trying my hardest to get some where don't know where, but I am in transit, this is the 2nd time I have had a dream like that, the first time I really posted the details. I am trying to make sense of it, the last dream was on the 15th of Oct. I have made note of the dates to compare later. But I wonder what that is all about.

Anyway here is to week 14 and lots more baby dreams.

Week 13.........and climbing

Hello To week 13............ I was wondering about many things this week regarding bringing Kayla home and the economy. I do pray that things do get better, I do pray that stability is restored in this country before I bring one of ET precious gems home, and I do pray that we learn from this horrible financial sitution we are in, so that it is a better place for all of our children. This week I will continue to pray.

I also continue to pray for Samuel,who is a little boy who has been home from ET 5 weeks that was in a horrible accident and is in critical but stable condition.........so for week 13 I will continue to pray. pray and pray....

Edit.........I pulled Robbin's number and skipped over my week 13, I had to edit the post, so for those that visited the blog when I had week 14 posted just know your eyes are not playing tricks on you. :)

Week 12..........yes the 3 month mark

Ok today I started a post w/pics of me b/c I was tagged, and I thought I would throw in an adult pic of me from back in the day........

Well week 12 does not feel any different from week 1........waiting still feels the same. I am so into school, getting to work on time, and work that I barely have time to allow my mind to run wild.

The room continues to shape up and I can't wait to see the end result. I find myself wondering in there a bit more each chance I have.

I am telling more and more people about Kayla,and my blog, people have been super surprised and supportive all at the same time. Some don't know what to say, while others have lots of questions. I think the baby pics on the blog last week kinda threw everyone outside of this adoption circle for a loop, they acutally thought those pics were pics of her, I was getting congrats and the whole bit. I guess for those that are not use to the whole blogging thing, and do not visit weekly it could be a bit confusing, I decided to tag pics of babies with a FYI.........this is not Kayla in the future.....

This week I meet 2 little girls w/the name Kayla, I think as a teacher, and as a Joke you find it hard to name your kids b/c most likely you have students w/every name in the book that you have taught before, that at one point in time has made you want to pull your hair out....well when I found out their names were Kayla, I just watched and said to myself pls. do not do anything silly, to make me hate the name Kayla. They were sweet little girls and I enjoyed saying the name. I even went over board w/saying their names. :)

As for week 12, all I have to say another week down and more to go!!

I was tagged

I have to be every bit of 5 here in this pic

Here I am in NC at the age of 6




I was tagged, but I can't add the link of the person who tagged me into this post...sorry Robbin


Directions......

1. Link to the person that tagged you.
2. Post the rules on the blog.
3. Write six random facts about yourself.
4. Tag six people at the end of your post
5. Let each person know they have been tagged.
6. Let the taggers know when your entry is up.

6 Facts about me

1. I can't wait to be a mommy
2. I am all about family
3. I love to entertain
4. I am a school teacher
5. I love life and live it to the fullest!!!!
6. Can't stand clutter it drives me crazy.

I don't know how to insert the link to anyone's blog so I will post their names

Terri.....from Texas.....I love watiching her and hubby love on little Gracie

Lisa...From CA She just bought her baby home and went through a lot to get her home

Kecia...because she is working on her second adoption

IsaB....She is such a cutie and I enjoy wathing and reading her blog